sleepless night in an ordinary life…
oh wow.. just when I was thinking about spending some time dozing off, I feel sleepless. So here I drift again. Probably because writing makes it so easy for me to get rid of random thoughts that keep plaguing my mind. And maybe, after having emptied my mind, I’ll get the sweet slumber I so deserve… OK, maybe I don’t, but its “me” we are talking about here…alright?!
Tonight, I discovered something I had been ignoring all these years… I had always anticipated living a wonderful life! Yes, to have an extraordinary life… to be someone everyone would look with awe and wonder…! OK , I am not even near any of the great-has been’s or great-would be’s, but I dreamt! In so wanting to be something I decidedly was not, I shunned what I surely was..And tonight, as I struggled to pull my wobbly self through my late night jog, I realised, life isn’t about being someone extraordinary… Before you dissent, let me put my point forward…
The greatest challenge of life is not when we endeavour through exciting bits of discovery or achievement…. It never has been..! That’s probably the most fun part! The greatest challenge is, to live an ordinary life, extraordinarily… Yes, those mundane things you most loathe to do… It is not about just doing them, but doing them with as much love and pleasure, as the things you so love doing…! Doing them as if you were doing them for the first and probably the last time ever..! Living each moment, and each day as if it were your last..! I know everyone’s heard this before… even I have, umpteen times…! But, to really get it under your skin, now that’s an altogether different matter…!
Tonight however, I tried testing this theory, on myself . Hmmm…where else can I find a guinea pig?! hehe… plus I really had fun!! Oh ya, I did! OK, so what did I really do? My biggest vice has been living a sedentary life for many years now… Blaming it on the demands put to me by my so-called education and on my big appetite! I mean ,how can I help? I am helpless at the hands of a boring and busy life…! And I am someone who wanted to be a long distance runner most of my early life! Oh, now I got your eyeballs popping for sure, didn’t I? hehe…! Well, surprising as it may sound, it is as true as it gets…! So why did I start loathing something I used to love doing? My only passion…running? Probably because it got boring…. And I found numerous ways to sidestep the boredom… But, today, I tried.. tried to put as much love into it, as I once felt for it… Dunno how it really started, but somehow I had these terrible thoughts… what if I am never able to run again? Never able to feel the cool breeze sweep through my hair…..? Never able to feel the exhilaration of a fast pace? I dunno how fast I ran, I didn’t have a speedometer…. but I do know, I ran with all I had in me…. And, it surely felt great !!
And as I trudged back home… this song was playing on the radio….“har pal ek naya geet hai…. zindagi ki yahi reet hai…. “ {A loose translation: “each moment is a new song…life has only this law… ” }
And, tonight unlike other nights, I had a spring in my step… and a song in my heart….! 
Tags: life, daily life, inspiration, hope, insomnia, living, ordinaryness, loving life, running, passion
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Monday, 24 September 2007 at 6:46 pm
Well said. Nothing wrong with getting smart one day and realizing you should be savoring what you have been taking for granted. And as for running, specifically, you’ll find most people who love to exercise are people who were mildly interested in it at first and then were injured and unable to do it for it for a few months. You come back from that with a strong appreciation. But to appreciate something without having lost it or without even feeling that you would lose it, well that’s just…. wisdom.
Tuesday, 25 September 2007 at 1:05 am
thank you myles2go!
I agree, wisdom lies in cherishing things without even having lost them, and I have played fool many times. But, as they say, I am learning each day, and getting wiser! Sometimes, when you are drifting along a path without much care, you need some jolts to give you a reality check. And I have been getting mine.
About the running, I appreciate it even more today, because of what it gave me, a passion to live for! And after having missed that kind of passion for various other things I’ve done, I realise its the thrill and the passion I need most in my life. You might not always be able to do only the things you love to do, but when you know of something that you really love, don’t ever let it go.. That’s a lesson I’ve learnt!
Thanks for stopping by, and putting in your inputs.. Hope to hear more from ya!
Tuesday, 2 October 2007 at 3:58 pm
I liked running. Not loved, but liked. And then my left knee threw a problem 3 years back and since then I have not run for the sake of running. So, if you have everythign going, go for a run while you can.
You write well, gypsygirl.
And I pray that the gypsy in you never tires.
Tuesday, 2 October 2007 at 4:05 pm
You really put it all in one line! Yes, fortunately I have everything going for me, except the piling pounds!
And the fool in me has finally become sensible to my blessings.. So I am running.. Hope I never tire!
Thanx for appreciating my posts, Gurdas!
May god bless ya!
Amen to your prayers & mine!
Friday, 5 October 2007 at 6:09 am
You had me out of breath trying to keep up!! LOL I broke my ankle in Jan 2006 and believe me, I empathize with people so much more and miss being able to put the weight on it with that kind of force! Live your passions, gypsygirl! We don’t get “do overs”…God Bless You All and Keep Writing!
Friday, 5 October 2007 at 12:46 pm
hehe… outta breath! I’ll sure try not to do that again!
“living your passions”…exactly what I want and should do.. 
thnx so much!