Letting go…
Funny to be talking about “letting go“, when I just wondered aloud about new beginnings..? But, how can u begin anew, when you are holding onto things that were…or should have been..? Sometimes doing the right thing is so difficult…I wonder how people think it is the easiest… For me, probably the most difficult lesson to learn has been this one… The truth is, I am still not sure if I’ll ever truely conquer my fears while letting go of people I so dearly adore… And maybe that is the reason, I find it hard to let go when I should…This probably stems from my habit of wanting to control things around me…or maybe at least trying to, albeit helplessly… and the more I try, the more I get frustrated… I know, you must be thinking… “silly girl! How can you even think about it?” noone can… I know, I can not….Yet, I unabhashedly admit to wanting to keep those people close to me, without whom, life wouldn’t be a happy journey for me… So today I whisper a silent prayer to my friend above… grant me patience and grace, enough to accept what comes my way and to let go….
Tags: blues, depression, life, loneliness, Love, personal, relationships, sadness, saying goodbye
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Sunday, 9 September 2007 at 10:21 am
I feel the same exact way. The friends close to me, who I’ll drop whatever I’m doing to help them. It’s so difficult to do so when they’re somehow ingrained into part of your life, that it’s almost like cutting your arm off.
I like the way you write .. they remind me of reading poems for some odd reason,
Sunday, 9 September 2007 at 5:04 pm
… “cutting an arm off” …exactly!
thank you for the appreciation! I do like writing poems.. though I dunno if my prose also ends up appearing like that! LOL…
Friday, 5 October 2007 at 6:14 am
I guess it comes from being mobile while growing up but somehow, I realize that things change with the seasons sometimes and I accept when people move on. Or maybe it’s just that I am so glad they won’t be around to hurt my feelings anymore!!!;-) I like the second theory!!
Friday, 5 October 2007 at 12:50 pm
Yeah, accepting that people will move on with their life is something that teaches you to move on too…I wish I could see the moving on part with your second theory!
Interesting one! I’ll sure try it… 