Starting afresh…!
mmmmm…….love fresh tidings! As far as I can remember, the enticing possibilities keep playing on my mind whenever I get down to something new! I had lost this feeling for a long time though… drifting through mindless hours of numbing stillness that had enveloped me… Hopelessly trying to do away with the seemingly invisible veils…had little realisation it would be so difficult… Yet, the steely walls have melted away….Back to square one, as most would say….I would however consider my life now as an autumn tree…many leaves…some shed away, some wilting, yet the core remains vital as ever… and this core will bear fresh leaves once again…Maybe the reason why, while most people detest autumn, it inspires fondness in me… giving the glimmering hope of things that might be…
Tags: dreams, inspiration, hope, beginning, excitement, autumn, breaking walls
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Friday, 5 October 2007 at 6:16 am
That’s such a beautiful thought…
Friday, 5 October 2007 at 12:51 pm
Thank you!
Saturday, 20 October 2007 at 11:30 pm
I have visited your site 486-times
Monday, 22 October 2007 at 11:27 am
funny coz i just have only 440 visits here! can u explain that?
Saturday, 3 November 2007 at 6:02 pm
Have you seen the documentary on PBS about Charles Schultz? Just thought you would enjoy it…such a good man! Well worth watching and inspirational.
Monday, 5 November 2007 at 9:19 am
Sorry for this delayed response! Where I live, we don’t have the PBS that you have. I wish I could have seen it, though! Charles Schulz is a favourite for me! A great sense of humor and a penchant for making all ordinary things charming and laughable! I believe he had been depressed for quite some time in his life, and that’s why so many laughs at it! If you can laugh at yourself, you can beat all your weaknesses, because you find them not worth the self-pity they tend to incite in many of us. Charles Schulz will remain an icon for that !
Tuesday, 6 November 2007 at 6:36 am
Are you overseas? Didn’t realize…When I was kid, we lived in several countries and never noticed the fact that we didn’t have TV at all (nothing in English or Spanish, anyway)…now I’m sure it’s all changed!
It’s funny b/c I don’t have cable but I can watch shows from different countries on regular channels. If you were of a mind, I bet you could go the the http://www.pbs.org/ site and see C. Schultz! Yes, he was the epitome of creative passion in his moods and part of what the doc brought out was exactly what you said, his cartoons spoke for him (painfully shy).
Are you, my dear gypsygirl, writing these days? Haven’t looked much this evening yet, but I want to encourage you to please share!! Your writing gives me a boost!!
I don’t know what’s wrong with me lately…seem to be bogging myself down thinking too much!! LOL
Tuesday, 6 November 2007 at 12:21 pm
Well overseas is an understatement!
Lets just say I stay across the globe from you!Maybe you’ve assumed I am from around your place, LOL.. Doesnt matter, though, does it? Well, I have cable, but we aint a native english speaking country. Its my second language. 
I would sure check the site you gave though. I did google PBS and got zapped with so many results! hehe..
About writing, nope, haven’t been writing, though would love to get back there. I have this crazy habit of thinking and thinking but when I sit to write, I am at such a loss of words, coz I tend to have gotten over with thinking what I was in the beginning! LOL.. I tend to have these fleeting thoughts and discussions, all within my mind! Doesnt make me sound too sane, does it?! LOL..
I would definitely wana share more though. And don’t get too bogged down by the thinking, go out and feel the tingling cool breeze! Life’s a happy journey, no point thinking too much! Just enjoy the ride!
Tuesday, 6 November 2007 at 4:50 pm
With English being your second language, you have an excellent grasp!! Better than some here, sadly. I used to give the students essays for misbehaving (why should I write a report when they were the ones rude?
and the results were pretty shocking…
Oh my goodness! You do exactly what I do!! I can have it all worked out when I’m cooking or shoewering and be at a loss when I start to write! And the conversations in my head sound VERY eccentric when I put it down!! LOL You do a better job than me in expressing your thoughts; I am thinking about opening an anonymous blog to see if that helps get to the nitty gritty…
Wednesday, 7 November 2007 at 10:51 am
Thank you. Its really not much, we get taught since we are toddlers!
Its just good teachers and a sincere student! LOL..
I guess I have been in love with the English language since I was barely 9 and started reading Enid Blyton and Noddy! :)) I think I’ve read all of Blyton’s .. St. Clare’s , Mallory towers.. Famous five, Nacy Drew.. I was a voracious reader, gobbling almost 6 or more books a week! I moved onto the classics we used to get as supplemetary readings. Around the world in 80 days, Jane Eyre, The Count of Monte Cristo, The Three Musketeers.. I loved reading them all… I fell in love with Agatha Christie later.. LOL.. I know too much murder and stuff, but what a charming ol’ lady Miss Marple really was! I wasnt too keen on Hercule Poirot though! hehe.. I have loved Jane Austen’s writings too.. No guesses, Pride and Prejudice still enthralls me. I’ve read Emma and Sense and Sensibility too… I loved that era, the french setting and still dream of a french country home of my own! ;-)) Quite a daydreamer, as I say!
Hmm.. I can understand what you feel. When I started writing as a child, my Dad gave me a small pocket handbook and said carry it with you and when a thought appears in your mind that you like, jot it down! That really did help me as a child, it helped me clear my barriers between the thoughts and expression..
I guess what most hampers our expression is when we feel what if I put something out there from my heart and it ends up getting ridiculed, or maybe it just end up being passable. And this is something close to me, so its valuable, and if gets ridiculed, I’ll feel bad.. The vulnerability can act like a tough nut, ironically! But I guess, atleast I’ve moved beyond that stage, and if really feels so much better without those false walls! Its lovely to enjoy your freedom of expression..
About your writings, I do believe you play them down too much. Stop being so self-effacing! You write well! I don’t think you need to open an anonymous blog, but if it pleases you, why not? A great thing to further your expression and free your mind!
I am not really a religious person, so many times I tend to stay away from the theological aspects a bit. Especially coz I dont want to misinterpret anything there. Its sacred. I respect people’s choices though.. I think we all should! No God tells his people to hate the other ones! Such a pity that we havent gone beyond that even in these “modern” times! I am more spiritual, than religious really.. I have these long conversations with him on my own, and we just talk one-on-one! ;-)) I dunno if this sounds weird too, but I like it that way.. God’s a friend for me!
Saturday, 17 November 2007 at 6:29 pm
Oh, you said it exactly! God is a friend and I don’t think all the arguing over “what He meant” is pleasing to Him! That’s why fiction is so pleasurable; we don’t become burdened by someone else’s interpretations. What I post is not for argument’s sake; I truly believe we have to accept Jesus as Savior to enter heaven. He said it and my relationship with Him is real, but almost impossible to put in to words. I never want to make anyone feel like I mean that “I’m right, you’re wrong”…I was raised on biblical teachings and have for the past, oh, 10 years I guess, really been interested and seeking more about Him.
I know someone who has a self-help book library. Uh, it’s called “self-help” for a reason! LOL Nothing at all against an author wanting to help others, but I think most of them just want to sell books… nothing wrong with that, either, except that people hang on every word and seem to go ga-ga over the author. Make sense? You’ve proably heard how some people attack actors as if they are really the characters they portray in shows,? Well, I recently read that a lady was praying for one of the characters in the “Left Behind” series ( 10 books depicting the end times, in case you’re not familiar). maybe some people shouldn’t even read fiction!! LOL I got an unsolicited book in the mail about how everyone who did not worship on Saturday, as opposed to Sunday, was going to hell! Talk about pushing an opinion! Every day should include Godliness!
I know precisely the feeling of others who will find something wrong with whatever one posts. And that’s all it is, they go around with a predetermined idea that they know better than the author what the author meant. Are you familiar with Associated Content? There are a few others, and they allow you to make money from writing. I am thinking about that, if you’re interested in the links to the sites!
Wednesday, 21 November 2007 at 6:06 am
Hey lady! I posted that tapestry for you under “Tree of Life”! Just wanted you to know I was thinking of you…Be safe and God Bless.
Wednesday, 28 November 2007 at 5:12 pm
hmm.. I didnt say you meant anyone to feel they are wrong..
I know you truly believe.
I like fiction, though I agree some people have a way of taking things out of context and going balastic over them. I agree about the part that every day should include godliness not just one..
I do hate unsolicited mail…especially those chain letters and all that crap about bad luck or good luck etc..etc… LOL.. what a bunch of nonsense it really is!
And I would definitely like to learn about Associated content, if you could pass on the links!
Wednesday, 28 November 2007 at 5:30 pm
Thanx for posting the tapestry only for me!